I plan on finishing high school this year with happiness, the feeling of accomplishment, and knowing that I’m ready to tackle on whatever the hell the future throws at me. I also plan on being accepted to a college that I fancy, getting a great score on the SATs, and maintaining all A’s this last year.
I dream of becoming apart of the entertainment industry. Either modeling or becoming a musician. And then getting married to another successful person. But those are just merely dreams..
My goals are to get my license, get a job, complete high school, get accepted into a college, finish my years of schooling, get into medical school, finish that, become a successful doctor, get married, etc.
Day o17 __ Someone You Would Want To Switch Lives With For a Day
I think it would be interesting to switch lives with someone famous, rather a musician. It would be cool to experience the performing, recording, and fan experience. Though I doubt you can do all of that in one day..
Day o13 __ Letter to Someone Who Has Hurt You Recently
Dear Person, #idontgethowpeople can lead you on for so long, but leave you because of their own insecurities and inability to move on from their past.
I posted that to Twitter. And I hope you KNOW that was towards you.
See, we’ve been through our ups and downs. My heart was right from the start after you hurt me, ‘this guy is a player and doesn’t know what the hell he wants. He’s still immature emotionally and mentally.’ But you know what I did for you? I stuck through it and didn’t listen to my heart because as they say ‘it never hurts to try, it just hurts to regret.’ (And also, you were my prom date so what the hell was I suppose to do?) You liked me again after that night, that night you made me feel special, made me feel something real. You were different, you said I was different, of course I was. I was actually ready for something to happen between you and I. We began holding hands, I never allowed anyone to do something like that, but I wanted you to. It made me feel special. Ups and downs, you figured I wasn’t allowed to date, but you still kept at my side in the same view point as I. Summer passes by and look where we are now, something I did particularly imagine hence we lived so far and didn’t have that much ‘hang out time’. I think that’s what broke us (sure there was also your clingy-whiny past). I felt we were breaking anyways, but I stayed positive and you somehow managed to remind me that when we texted each other. You said you couldn’t wait to see me when I got back from Cali, and that you wanted to. That you missed me, truly.
I find that kind of funny really. You miss me, really? You wanna see me/my face, really? You hate that you won’t be able to see me, really? Really now? Last I checked, when someone missed another person so much, they would try talking to them more often, actually hang out with them when a day was planned and the day of, they usually send a reminding text.. What happened to that? What happened to us? Sure we slowly began to die down on contact, but how does one week or a few days change your mind so quickly?
People would ask me now what happened between us. I would be hesitant to tell them because the true reason I broke it off may sound a bit typical of a sometimes over-thinker like myself. “Oh don’t worry girl, he’s just doing that again. He might still like you.” Actually, my friend, this time you’re WRONG. I’ve fit the pieces of the puzzles together, the warning signs I should have read to TURN THE EFF BACK. It’s all clear to me now.
School is starting in less than three weeks. I’m curious as to how you’ll be handling this situation between you and I. Just know that the next time you tell me you miss me. I will laugh and respond with my non-believing “oooooh-kay” and walk away casually or finish whatever I would be doing in that moment. But I won’t expect much out of you like I did before.. After this, I’ve realized that I shouldn’t ever.
I’m not bitter, no. I’m not childish either. (Hmm, see a difference, boy?) I’m a forgiving person. If you’re mature enough to walk up to me and apologize, explain things and ask for a forgiveness, I will think different of you. For now, I’m just cautious, after you broke my trust a couple of times. What happens if you start to like me again? I don’t know. I really don’t. It’s up to you, not me. You made this decision to go back to your ‘comfort zone’, not me. So don’t bitch at me later on. I might like you back, who knows. But just know that now, I don’t give a fukc that you get discouraged easily. The tables will be turned and I won’t make things easier for you like I did before. It’s my way, or the highway.
I had to pour my heart out to rid and clear my mind, body, and soul of evil.
The fact that you decide to settle for less, is your problem. Who the hell goes back to their ex who is nothing but a little child? I have a feeling like you’re the type of person who, if the girl that you like doesn’t spend as much time with you as the last chick, you go back to the old girl because you’re insecure and need a ‘comfort’ zone for you to sit at until the girl you like comes back to you.
To be honest, I’m not sure if you still like that chick or not again. It’s just all these ‘evidences’ are floating up out of the water for me. One of my best guy friends even admits to thinking that you’re ‘playing me’. I would hope you aren’t. Because I don’t allow that type of shit to happen to me. If you were ever to stoop low, if this is what you are doing, this is the LOWEST anyone has done to me, friends wise.
I’m not a desperate girl. I’m honest and trustworthy. What I say, is what I mean. You can be discouraged and what not, but know that you’re missing out on a much better woman. I do forgive, and until you’re ready to grow up and be a man, be less insecure, and know what you want, I’ll be here. But right now, I’m off… deuces.